I miss you

In the words of someone with so much potential:

"I tried. I went to seek others hoping to find better. To try to forget your kisses, the softness of your skin, your smell, your eyes, your face. But it became worse. And it hurts. And despite what you did to me, I can not hate you. I hate not being able to forget, but I can not help it if I still love you.
I miss you K."


I don't know what to say. This is such a painful subject to talk about. I honestly don't know why I decided to write about this. But I think that if I can get through it and live to tell the tale, then people out there should hear it. Should hear that though life may be a struggle, it will always work out NO MATTER WHAT. There are so many ways I could express what i'm feeling.
I can't get you off my mind. Wherever I go, whatever I do, everything finds a way of relating to you somehow. Is my mind playing tricks on me? Or am I just on the verge of becoming legally insane. Maybe that might be the easier route. Let's just make this legal and it will be acceptable to be feeling this way. Yeah that's it. ha.. I've tried everything. I've tried telling myself that I hate you every day. Who am I kidding I can't out think my mind. My heart. The thing you want most will always prevail. ALWAYS.

Honestly, I don't know where I am going with this. I think that my love is too big for your heart. Too.. overwhelming. Unless you feel the same? Oh the money I would pay to know that answer. Well, if there is one thing that I know, it's that there is hope. For me, and for you. It might take months. Years. But I can promise that there will be a point where you are happy and when you feel as if life couldn't get any better. You might be in an endless wo that feels unbearable. The fact that the entire world is ahead of you? That. That right there should be enough. It should be a big motivation. It's mine. Keep going. Please.